I am so pissed!

I got diagnosed with cancer a week ago and I was told today that I have at least one more surgery and chemo and radiation to look forward to, and I have way more things that I would like to get done before I become a radically mutilated cancer patient.
My name is John McCullough, I am a singer, a songwriter, a guitarist and a photographer. That is all that I am. That is all that I ever will be. Anything that is contrary to those means is unacceptable to me.
I am expected to go out on tour and come back and start the mutilation process, how does that begin to advance MY goals?